I have struggled with my body confidence for as long as I can remember. Even at my lowest weight I couldn’t see how I truly looked in the mirror.

As a teenager I was never ‘fat’, I’ve always had big hips and a big bum. My stomach was flat and I had decent size boobs, so I should have been happy right? Wrong.
I always compared myself to others, wanting what I didn’t have. Throughout School, College and University I did the same.

I have been a size 8 to a size 12 and throughout all stages of my weight I haven’t liked what I saw in the mirror, I was constantly on a diet, weighing myself, punishing myself for enjoying a chocolate bar, and what for? I was miserable and unhappy.

Coat- Primark (instore) | Trousers- Topshop | Jumper- H&M | Boots- ASOS

It’s sad that the world of social media has taken over to knock people’s body confidence. Just click on Instagram and you can find millions of girls with the ‘perfect’ body.
What the photos fail to tell us is that the majority of these will have used several different filters, face tune apps, corrections and a whole host of other things for what you see in the image.

Why can’t we just love ourselves as we are? In my eyes there is only one of you, everyone is beautiful in their own special way.

Today, as a 26 year old woman, I have accepted yes, I do have hips and a big bum with a bit of a belly, but who cares? It doesn’t make me a bad person does it? I have great Friends, an amazing Boyfriend and loving Family, so what does being thin gain me? I’ll tell you what- nothing.

I have learnt how to dress for my figure. I know what works for my body and what I feel good in, so I focus on this when shopping and styling myself.
When I’m wearing something I feel good in, I feel on top of the world and the best version of myself.

That’s not saying I don’t have days where I look in the mirror and don’t like what I see. Yes I have down days, but I have learnt to control my demons and embrace my body.

One of my favourite things is going out for a meal and socializing, so why should I deprive myself this happiness? So what if my jeans feel a little tight, I’ll just be good for a few days to balance it out!

I guess what this word vomit blog post is trying to say is, it’s silly really isn’t it? We constantly diet, punish and starve ourselves for what? Just a number.

Don’t let just a number get you down, you have one life so live it! Eat that chocolate bar or bag of crisps you want and don’t punish yourself!

Hope you enjoyed reading this post, I feel it’s so important we speak up about taboo subjects.

Speak soon,

B x